Posted by jlynne on March 14, 2004, at 0:23:54
In reply to Re: Redirected Lexaproers, posted by mrs c on March 13, 2004, at 19:45:19
mrs. c, I am glad you are still here. The night that Dr. Bob first started redirecting us, I had a major anxiety attack. I didn't know how to get from the new thread to anywhere. I cried myself to sleep that night, and thought I had lost my new-found support forever. It was so difficult for me to get the courage to start posting and then I messed up so soon afterward.
Now I am embarrassed at how simple it is to jump around in here, but it took most of last night to figure it out. I'm glad Mystic found me - she kind of held me together while I was trying to figure it out (but it was kind of like the blind leading the blind).
I'm sorry if I tend to run on. You asked for some background . . . I am 54yrs old and I take Lexapro for depression/anxiety and some OCD. I am in my 5th week, and just increased to 15mg a couple days ago; I take Lorazepam at night to help me sleep (I tend to obsess after I go to bed).
I had a major breakdown when I was 26yrs old and have been in and out of therapy and on and off meds several times since. I gave up on the meds about 5 yrs ago. I am on again (meds) because I have just recently been through a divorce (together 17 yrs - he left last summer for another woman . . .) and after the holidays, I just couldn't seem to stop crying. I just felt like an old discarded rag. I have been very apprehensive about getting my hopes up for the Lexapro, but I feel encouraged by all the support I have found here (even though I was just reading and not participating the first month). Now I better stop or I'm afraid you'll be sorry you asked:) You can probably tell I'm feeling kind of wired right now. Thank you for writing. jlynne
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