Posted by lepus on February 7, 2004, at 19:28:18
In reply to Re: just can't hold on, posted by gardenergirl on February 7, 2004, at 18:19:53
i just don't know how many more years i can keep saying that "this year it will get better" only to have it not. now it isn't even years it is days. "tommorrow will be better" and it rarely ever is. i had about a year of stability and feeling like this was all behind me and i wish to go i had never seen those days because now it makes it all the harder to be back on medication and back in the therapist's office and wondering where my life went wrong and why it keeps going wrong. it is just a cruel joke. there is nothing a therapist can say that alters reality: back to living with my parents, broke, alone, insane, prospects for finishing degree slim, prospects for a job that interests me are slim, on disability, barely able to leave the house, and on and on. if i have a purpose what it is has certainly alluded me. Guess I will go pick up a book and read and go to bed. thanks for the words and kind thoughts i appreciate it. i guess i didnt' totally mean for this thread to be focused solely on me; i honestly was interested in a discussion of when is it okay to let go in the case of a mental illness. i don't know. thanks.
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