Posted by daydreamer on January 28, 2004, at 15:37:38
In reply to Daydreamer - How are you today?????, posted by Tootercat on January 28, 2004, at 11:35:03
Today?
Im alive.You know.
I remebered something.I was cleaning out my old car that day (they day I tried slicing my wrists).
Picking things out of the glove compartment and putting them in my semi-new vehicle. I was picking out things such as maps, tire gauges, pens, etc.
There were two pocket knives in there. I remember starring at the pocket knives like, "I know I need them", "you never know what will happen".
I always have my pocket knives with me in case of an emergency.
I had lost them, found them....but I didnt get them. I didnt put them in my car that day.
Why? So unordinary of me to just sit there and debate such a thing.My point is.. Im not dead now, because I didnt grab the pocket knife and put it in my new car.
I wanted to- but I didnt.
Instead I tried using everything I had that was sharp-- and could cut through the skin.
I should have had that knife with me, but I didnt...So today?
Im alive..but scared to take my meds.
poster:daydreamer
thread:306439
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