Posted by PhoenixGirl on January 21, 2004, at 22:18:31
This fear runs through my mind every day, over and over again. I want to be a reporter, and cover international stories in developing countries. Many of these places are dangerous and there is little access to modern health care. With my serious, long-standing depression, I need medication. If I go without it, I cannot function. I believe that if I can be on my medication, then I could perform my job functions. My fear is that the news organization I may work for would not send me to the locations I want to cover because I need medication, and may not have access to it in those locations. If they would allow me to go, what if I do lose my medications, or run out of it because I have to stay longer than expected, then cannot function? A woman I knew who worked at CNN said they wouldn't send a reporter to dangerous locations if the reporter had to take medications. For the reasons I gave above, which are the same reasons the military does not want people like me.
Truly, when I try to even reduce my medication, I am so severely depressed that I want to die. Getting a "physical" treatment for depression, like medication, is a must for me. I wish that I could get that VNS (vagal nerve stimulator) put in me, or at least the selegiline patch. If either would work for me.
I feel so imprisoned by my condition...I could be an excellent reporter, but with my condition, I don't know what is possible...
poster:PhoenixGirl
thread:303982
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