Posted by Penny on January 20, 2004, at 9:03:59
In reply to the truth..., posted by justyourlaugh on January 19, 2004, at 22:19:58
> i have no reason to feel so alone..
> i have kids to take care of , who love me,who i love..
> because c is away makes no difference..
> maybe i created them to fill this horrid void,
> it didnt stop the pain..
> what will?
> what will?
JYL,For me, it makes me feel worse when I feel bad/sad/lonely/whatever and then think, "But I have no reason to feel this way..." - honor your feelings if you can. It really sucks to feel alone, even when you are surrounded by people you love and who love you - but it's the nature of the beast (depression). Don't be so hard on yourself - you don't choose to feel this way! I know that if you had your choice, if you could just 'snap out of it' or 'get over it' or whatever, you would. We all would. But we can't, JYL, because it is an illness. And it is NOT YOUR FAULT.
I so wish I could help you - I wish I could take away at least some of the pain. I don't know what to say to make it better. Just know (even if you don't feel this way right now!) that it doesn't last forever. It might seem that way, but I think you know logically that nothing lasts forever, and this feeling of being alone that you have won't either. So try to hang in there, and do whatever you have to do to get through in the meantime. Just hang in there.
Sending lots of love, hugs, warm feelings and hot chocolate.
P
poster:Penny
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