Posted by Karen_kay on January 3, 2004, at 22:18:56
In reply to Criminal or desperated, is it the same?, posted by femlite on January 3, 2004, at 7:36:37
Hello. It is so very hard. I have the same dx you do. Though I've only had 2 Pdoc's. I switched to the second after the first put me on Lamictal starting at 100 mgs when I asked him several times if the dosage was too high and he reassured me it wasn't. So, I took it and a few months later (I didn't get the rash luckily, but I was severly depressed and wished I would get it :(, I told him he started me high. He was shocked! But, I ended up switching when I changed therapists and groups altogether. My new Pdoc once accused me (not to my face but in a meeting when my therapist was present) of trying to get klonopin to "get a buzz". He also accused me of "coercing my therapist into believing I was manic" when I was actually suffering from antipsychotic enduced akathesia. Now, you tell me how I could talk my therapist into believing I was manic when I had akathesia? I told him I think I'm manic. I was in his office pacing, straightening bookshelves, talking nonstop, ect. He made me make an emergency apt. with my Pdoc. But, I didn't "coerce" him. BS! But, after that, I just have to accomodate my Pdoc. If I have anxiety, I don't ask for antianxiety meds. I actually stopped them without his knowledge, and told him months later (HA! So much for being a Drug abuser!!) I also keep accurate notes of any and all side effects for any meds I take. Now, we don't have any problems. I just suspect he gets quite a few drug abusers in his office and I told his in a straight forward manner that I know klonopin works and that's what I want. He took it the wrong way. I suppose I could see why now. But, he gave me the script and didn't hesitate for a second. That's what bothers me....
I told you that because we ALL have run-ins with our Pdoc's from time to time. That is bound to happen. It can't always be a cake walk. They have off days, and we have off days. But, do you have any friends (or family members) who see Pdocs? Could you get suggestions? You said you live in a small town. Does it bother you that people in town know that you are seeing a Pdoc? If that is the case, is there a larger city that you would be willing to drive to. There would be a larger selection as well. Also, is insurance an issue? As well as therapy. My therapist and Pdoc is in the same building so that makes it rather convinient. I can schedule appointments together so I don't have to make two trips. Also, I can complain to my therapist about my Pdoc and vice versa :) (And that happens frequently!!!! I just hope they don't do the same :( I just thought of that.....
It is hard to find a Pdoc you like. I don't really care that much about finding one I like. I didn't care much for him when I first met him. In fact, I really disliked him! But, after the first few visits, I typically only meet with him for 20 minutes every month, but now he talks a lot so he only charges me for 20 minutes and he talks between 45 minutes to an hour. But, since I've started coming "prepared" he seems to like me a lot more and I'm quite fond of him as well. So, my best suggestion is to give it some time. My Pdoc got me on a med, by my suggestion, that has me feeling the best I've ever felt in my life! And he doesn't understand how it works by itself but it does. I think any other Pdoc would have said no, or would have put me with an add on at least. So, mine listens. Something I didn't think he did in the beginning. Try a new one and just give the relationship some time to grow. It's like a friendship of sorts (strange way to think of it, I know!!)
poster:Karen_kay
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