Posted by Emme on January 3, 2004, at 10:13:55
In reply to I've become a vampire!, posted by Emme on January 2, 2004, at 0:04:11
Okay, maybe it's time to think about melatonin. I'd have to find out if there's any problem with that and my meds. Or off I go to get some fresh milk to heat up. What would make warm milk taste less awful? I guess turning it into hot chocolate would defeat the purpose.
And I'm so darned anxious. I mean really anxious and worried about life, the universe, and everything. And practically twitching I'm so anxious. I was bordering on a panic attack last night. I seldom ever get those anymore. Calgon take me away..... Does anyone else find their fears and worries amplified a hundred -fold at night? I hate waking up every morning with a racing pulse and negative thoughts. Of course daytime isn't too pretty either. I can't get over the hump to be productive and time is slipping away and I'm getting older and going nowhere. Time to resume a little benzo usage - I'd weaned off to see how it would go. Time to do *something*. I want to go look at cool animals in Costa Rica. I want to go to New Zealand. I can't afford to go.
Whine whine whine. I want my pdoc. :(
But hey, it's not snowing! Yeehaa. It's going to be warm today. But it's raining so we're probably not going birding. I threw out my old blender - I got a new one for Christmas. Pina coladas anyone? I need to write out a couple of job applications. I must get inspiration and focus. I threw out my old floor palm because it had bugs I couldn't get rid of. I have my first poinsettia. Don't live above people who are vocally trained. They're really nice but they sing. One says he can throat sing - I think I'll ask for a demo. Oh, and I saw a lovely movie last night: The Road Home. You must watch it. Have a good Saturday. I bet I conk out again soon.
Emme
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