Posted by KellyD on December 21, 2003, at 17:04:29
In reply to Re: Ability for feeling Happiness? » KellyD, posted by Emme on December 21, 2003, at 13:06:01
"I understand. I feel grief from something that happened 12 years ago, and much as I have tried in therapy, I haven't been able to really get past it. It's added what seems to be a permanent component of sadness to my world."
~I think that is the real key for mine. The explanation of my therapist (the one that made the most sense), was in some way I probably felt holding on to this piece of sadness that impaired my happiness, was a way to keep her "real, alive(?), close" for me. Not really a protracted grief response but something hardwired in me, now.
Anyway, I wish it was different, but it doesn't "feel" changable to me. It's not horrible, but true joy feels unreachable.
Prehaps the dementor's theory IS true!!
Thanks for making me feel less alone with this.
Kelly
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