Posted by st@cy on December 17, 2003, at 23:01:50
i just don't know anything right now...i feel like i'm going nuts or something. things are not going how i want them to and i am seeing things for what they really are. the guy i'm seeing, well i just confessed so much to him, personal stuff about my past and as soon as i got off the phone i regretted it. he told me his life story too, but i wish i would have kept my mouth shut and i know in the back of my head there is no reason to be stressing out over it, but i just don't ever want to talk to him again. I feel like i can redeem myself by steering away from him. also, i've finally realized that the guy that i was interested in that i e-mail all the time is not worth investing emotion and i wonder why i get involved with things that just cause me heartache! i've drank almost two pots of coffee tonight and i don't know why, i don't want to lay down to sleep bc then all i will do is lay there and dwell on these things, not that i'm not dwelling on them now, but i don't know. i'm just rambling on, i just have to get this stuff off my chest. why do i care so much about guys and what they think about me, why do i feel like i have to have a man in my life? i don't really need answers to those questions, like i said...i'm just venting.
poster:st@cy
thread:291155
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20031217/msgs/291155.html