Posted by Emme on December 17, 2003, at 9:32:30
In reply to Re: Yet another career thread (long), posted by noa on December 16, 2003, at 18:35:39
Hi Noa,
I reread my post from yesterday. All the same worries are definitely still here, but they sure were in high gear yesterday! Fortunately I'm too exhausted from a brutal kickboxing class last night to think too hard today. :)
> You need to focus on the middle of that continuum more, some sort of middle ground between the dichotomy.
Maybe that will be the topic of discussion with my next appointment with my therapist. I should be able to get in a couple more before the new year.
> Also, when you look at and compare yourself to people with careers well on their way, you are setting yourself up to feel inadequate because you have to start at the beginning, just as everyone does. They did, too, obviously (I know you "know" this but your emotional side probably needs reminding)
That's true, the reminding never hurts. I tend to forget that they may have had periods of feeling green and inexperienced. I do think I'd have an easier time with the idea of being a beginner at something myself if I were a bit younger. I've been reminded that nowadays people change career tracks all the time and at all ages.
> You seem to be wanting to expect yourself to have the new career and new skills fully formed, and not allow yourself to be a beginner. That is asking too much of yourself, I think.
I think part of that is because I have lost time to my mood disorder. So I feel a tremendous need to make up for lost time.
> How about not pressuring yourself to decide on a career path right now, but focus on a short term job goal. Maybe when you are feeling stronger, you'll be able to envision more of a career path.
My pdoc says I should think about baby steps. My cousin says that. Everyone says that. I do get grumpy at the idea. But the majority may have a point. I think my objective at the moment is to have some part time flexible work to bring in a little money and still allow me time to research real job ideas. Enter the idea of trying to be a sub. teacher. I realize this may be like feeding myself to a bunch of pirhanas - I remember what we did to subs in high school. :) But I'll give it a whirl.
Thanks for the encouragement.
Emme
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