Posted by socialdeviantjeff on December 14, 2003, at 3:02:35
Between Christmas and meds, I'm worse than broke. I get spasms and shooting pains. My coordination and cognition are shot. I constantly fight off sleep. I wake up at all hours. FYI, I have an ideosyncratic sensitivity to meds.
Well... Today was the first day in a long time I felt pretty godd. My 5 year old daughter had a crisis when she couldn't go to a birthday party for a friend and had to go to one for a cousin due to a scheduling conflict. Whew. I handled it with grace and without going nuts. Even in front of my ex and her new husband. They are also selling their house and moving closer. No more hour commute. Yay! I went to work and was generally upbeat most of the time. I'm getting along with my coworkers better.
I feel that my depression is losing it's edge. My anxiety is still pretty bad and the physical problems are unchanged, but I feel like I'm finally on a positive track. It's an exciting prospect to think that things could actually get better for me. It's an uphill battle but I'm in it for the long haul. As always, I thank the folks on this board for helping me through hard days in the past. I am far from remission, and this board has and will figure a large part in these changes.
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