Posted by Penny on December 10, 2003, at 10:15:52
In reply to Ugh., posted by Dinah on December 10, 2003, at 9:48:26
> Work stress has caused blood sugar creep. Even though I haven't been eating badly for the last week or so my fasting blood sugar jumped 9 points. And work stress is just bound to get worse. So I guess it's back to Glucophage for me, feeling crummy all the time, and IBS. Sigh.
- I'm sighing for you...
> Happy happy joy joy. And I know my binges didn't help either. Totally joyless binges at that. Why do I overeat when I don't enjoy it much while I'm eating, I feel sick after, and I know it can cause me to have to go back on a medication I hated? I have this crazy notion that it's a self destructive urge. But I know rationally that doesn't make any sense. Diabetes isn't likely to kill me, just to disable me if I don't take care of it.
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> Ugh.- I feel the same way - I don't have diabetes...yet. But I KNOW that I will most likely develop it if I don't change the way I eat, if I don't lose some weight, etc. My maternal grandmother is a type II diabetic, as is my father. And probably other family members I don't know about. And, yet, I've gained back the weight I lost (35 lbs) last time I was on Weight Watchers (earlier this year) and I continue to gain. I don't even weigh myself anymore - but I can tell by the way my clothes are ceasing to fit. Sigh again.
I tend to think this is my being self-destructive as well. Sometimes I think, "Ya' know - it's like slow suicide...I'm eating myself to death." Granted, I have a little way to go before actually eating myself to death, but when I think about all the diseases I'm increasing my risk for...well...
My therapist doesn't fully agree with this theory, though. I don't know if that's good or bad.
I don't know what to tell you about overeating...I binge all the time. There's an AA group that meets in a building down the road from my apartment...I wish there was an overeaters anonymous group that met there as well. Maybe I would find it helpful. I doubt it.
Sorry, I'm not much help. Not feeling very up today. But you're not alone.
Take care.
(((Dinah)))
P
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