Posted by Jai Narayan on December 10, 2003, at 9:30:23
In reply to Re: that is so sweet. me2 » Jai Narayan, posted by JadeT on December 9, 2003, at 19:50:12
Hello Jade
>but your reaction came across to me as being overexaggerated...especially considering all it appeared you did was have a chat about a few things like going out in a canoe with your partner to watch some birds?
Of course again, maybe I am missing something?....but that how it came across to me.
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Let me get this; I am being questioned because I am overly friendly and saying things that are too exaggerated. That's me…when I like something or someone I gush….Maybe it's cuz I'm too (some people like it) enthusiastic verbally. I gush when I see: babies, dogs, birds….I have intense emotions/reactions. For some reason I had the impression if there was anywhere I could be accepted for having intense emotions it would be here on psycho babble…hummm?
Okay lets cut to the real puzzle: WHY DID I SAY "H O N E Y". I said it because it seems the people here say it a lot and I was touched by that term of affection when it was said to me. I was trying on that verbal affection term. True it was not my normal way but a few people had said that to me and I was moved. I wanted to be light, easy…comfortable. Wow did I read all this wrong!Also "(if Larry is a he)"....
My questioning is part of the effect of feeling like this whole thing is so unreal now. I don't know what reality is now. I am questioning if this is all a bad dream…if anyone is, who they seem to say they are… I have lost the thread of reality…
>here again, well I guess I should give you the benefit of doubt too..perhaps you react like that to females and males? no judgements being made, of course...It all feels like judgement….
>Thanks again Jai.. it must be hard for you to face these questions and I appreciate your attempts to answer.all right where are we now? I feel very weary….what have I gained by jumping through these hoops? Will I be forgiven? Or will I just continue to be a target? I need to know. If you have more questions I will try my best to answer them but I am real tired and sad now. Wow who would have guessed…I so enjoyed Larry Hoover and wanted to share that with him….and I end up hurt and I end up hurting others….
I hope all these questions are going somewhere?????I have a few questions. Do you see Larry as a victim? Are you rescuing him?
All I can say from the bottom of my heart.."I am so sorry if I hurt anyone…that makes me real sad."
Jai Narayan
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