Posted by socialdeviantjeff on November 23, 2003, at 13:26:52
In reply to Re: Thanks to you all » socialdeviantjeff, posted by jay on November 22, 2003, at 10:02:57
I've been despairing for a long time. I do find happiness with my daughter. I'm going to concentrate on that. Even that can be really really hard sometimes, but I know it's better than slowly pushing her away. Sometimes it's hard to realize what impact I would have on people if I killed myself. I sure wouldn't miss me, but after a heart to heart with my parents I have some more perspective. Most of the time they are really hard to talk to. Fortunately not this time.
I have very little pleasure in my life, but I can't stand the idea of putting the people around me through more grief than I already am.
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