Posted by Kirbdawg on November 16, 2003, at 20:43:16
In reply to I said that wrong/ fallsfall, posted by kara lynne on September 24, 2003, at 0:47:17
At 17, I fell in love with a fifteen year old girl. Over a period of 3 years, we lived together with her family. I loved her very much. Then... she told me one day that she needed her space... it was the last time I ever held her again.
A couple of years later, I was still miserable,... she was still a part of me. I ran off to the Marine Corps... spent six years there. I eventually got married to a woman I didn't love, got two kids with the package, and had two of my own. After 9 years of being faithfull to a slut wife, she ran off with one of her friend's x-husband. It wasn't all bad... my career was a success... only because I loved it more than the drama waiting for me when I got home.
My x-wife, fucked away all my friends. She took my house, my children, and what little dignity I had left. But, no matter what life drags me through.... it's still that little 15 year old girl that has hurt me the worst.
I still love her so much... even now,15 years latter. I think my life would be perfect, both our lives, if she had only loved me for a day longer.
I'm 34 now, broke, completely alone, and still crying,... it's just me and a picture of her I found at classmates.com. If I had to relive my life again, I would have killed my self right after we broke up and saved myself all these years of grief and hopeing. I should kill myself now... but there's no one left in my life to miss me.
I love you Mendi... there hasn't been a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I'm still in love with you...
poster:Kirbdawg
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