Posted by NikkiT2 on October 27, 2003, at 10:12:27
In reply to Fist Fights - Long, posted by fallsfall on October 27, 2003, at 8:27:03
What an awful thiong that must have been to witness.. I hate physical violence, and it really scares me. It must have been very difficult for you.. BUt well done on stepping in and trying to sort something out between them.
I'm sorry you feel so uncomfortable here. I guess I am to blame. But.. when my trust has been abused, I simply cannot forgive, move on, or trust again. This is a flaw in me, I accept that, and I admit to it quite freely.
I was happy to move on actually, leave everything in the past, but.. I'm so uncomfortable with some posts here, the hipocrasy of some posts here, that it feels like salt is being rubbed into my wounds. Should I sit back and allow this happen, or should I stand up for my own beliefs and values?? I dunno.. at the moment, I am standing up for myself. When I stop doing that I suppose it will be time for me to leave PB and move onto pastures new. I guess soon to pain will be too bad for me to stay.
I just wish I had stayed ignorant, it was so much more simple then.I hope you fnd a good alternative to the group you don't want to return to. And I hope that can help you understand why I can't just role over and play the obedient dog.
Nikki
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