Posted by zeugma on October 26, 2003, at 15:42:49
In reply to Re: another nauseating problem, posted by Katt on October 26, 2003, at 13:06:14
Thanks to everyone who was supportive. Unfortunately, there's a predictable pattern that occurs with me in response to stress. No matter how well I deal with it, no matter how many relaxation exercises I do (my CBT therapist's solution for everything) even in the best of times I feel tense, jittery, and have a difficult time staying calm. When something stressful occurs the bottom falls out. I've had terrible IBS this weekend, severe stomach pain, terrible sleep last night, overall feeling completely rancid.
I saw my pdoc on Friday and he told me point blank that he doesn't want to put me on any more drugs. It's easy for him to say that because he doesn't have to deal with the consequences of my anxiety. Right now it's not the episode itself that's upsetting me, it's the aftermath (terrible jitteriness, physical anxiety symptoms). And doing the cognitive strategies my CBT therapist also relies on mean nothing when my gut is feeling so AWFUL. The anxiety is so bad that I don;'t think I will be able to properly explain it to her when I see her tomorrow (just being the presence of someone makes me too self-conscious to want to explain). I think the best i will be able to do is print this out and let her read it. It is so frustrating feeling so anxious that even talking to your own therapist is too intimidating to fully explain what is going on. And the MOST frustrating part is that the cycle is totally predictable: Anxiety-provoking event occurs; I become anxious in response; then I calm myself down; then the sh*t hits the fan (how appropriate for this situation) as the physical consequences of the increased anxiety levels hit me. I am hanging in there but feeling awfully rancid, upset with my doctor, and worried that this will also impact me at work. Thanks again for your support.
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