Posted by madwand on October 18, 2003, at 9:27:36
In reply to Re: Why is it we're supposed to want to live?, posted by Dinah on October 18, 2003, at 9:13:07
Dinah,
My apologies if my earlier post did not acknowledge your pain -- I really didn't realize what kind of space you are in (but I do stand by the part about the Supreme Being, which contrary to the phrasing of my note *is* part of what I believe).
The only thing I can add at this point is about what you said about the thoughts that your kid "would be better off". While I have never felt suicidal per se (not quite sure why that is), I am familiar with that space of "the people in my life would be better off if I weren't there".
That is a hard one to beat -- I still struggle with it. The thing to remember is that, like alcoholism, depression is a disease that lies to us. A thought. When you are in that state -- try "personifying" your depression and talking to it. Tell it you know it is lying, and perhaps even say that if it will tell you the *truth* you would be willing to listen.
Hang in there -- a lot of people are behind you!Michael
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