Posted by femlite on October 12, 2003, at 21:02:13
Im still really embarassed about the other post. About being wasted. sorry all
Im really loosing hope of finding a pdoc any where let alone in my area who can help. Im on the third one and this new treatment just doesnt make any sense to me.
The last pdoc put me on WB xl. And a small sonata scrip she begrudgingly gave me to sleep. I call to have it refilled befor the week end hit and ended up in a shouting match with receptionsist.Next pdoc, I was told he was a little more creative and might at least consider the the WB was inducing mania. He mumbled something about it, the scprit pen began to fly, and in my hads were 2 benzodiazpines and lithium prescription. That was yesterday.
I cant figur out what he wants me to do. I think he wants me to just stop the WB. I suggested that might mess me up a bit to jsut drop it , he assured me I would be okay , "it was all in my head"
Realizing my consternation and the sounds of "work, work, I have to work" assaulting his hears, he capitualted "cut the WB in half".
Yesterday evening I came home took the Lorazepam 1 mg and Lithium 450 mg he gave me, along with the Neurontin 300mg, before bed and figured I could skip the 10 mg of Ambien he gave me for sleep. No problem sleeping
Today, I try to play it safe I take 1/2 the WB xl, And because Ive been a little jumpy and overley excited all morn (my family calls it screaming at them :) so I take the Ativan. 9am
little speech slurring durring the day but no problem .
I took another Ativan. 2-3pm I was okay for a while, Im not sure when it really hit.
I tried to watch tv, and even though I was so unsteady I felt like doing something, and a drink suddenly sounded real good. I opened it, took one sip, and realized I was too far down the road alreadly.
I came in here to chat and check my mail, and i could not si up.
I managed to type the sos. I laid on the floor waiting to see if someone was around, it got so bad, I fell asleep on the kitchen floor.So this is Lorazepam? Is it suppose to make you feel stoned?
What is he thinking? ( the pdoc) Im manic and taking Wellbutrin but bezos arent a long term solution. He gave me lithium, which might help but I dont know how long that will take.
I seem to remember saying that i was very cynical about the reallity of ADs helping any one about 6 months ago on this very sight. I got a lot aof flack for that. The jury is still out on ADs but the pdocs are guilty as h**l.
I t would be great if someone on this sight could keep up with changes iv been through. I realize that is too much to expect. And While Iv recived alot of support here, today I feel like theres little hope of even finding a diagnosis.
poster:femlite
thread:268788
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