Posted by DharmaMama on October 10, 2003, at 14:44:48
I am new to here and have posted once in regards to Topamax. I am 26, live in Houston, a wife, a mother of two girls, & a slave to corporate America.
I have been depressed for as long as I can remember. I do exceptionally well at covering it up, even to myself. I have been in and out of therapy since 12. I have only been diagnosed with depression. On and off meds. I do not like taking meds. I was adopted at birth. Recently found out my mother died in '95 from apparent suicide heroin overdose. I constantly think of suicide and have visions of the act in my mind. I self-mutilate. I often think to myself and find myself speaking my thoughts out loud. Embarassing. I think negatively of my looks.
On the up side, I enjoy waterskiing, traveling, and my girls.
I have been looking for a therapist since I checked out of a hospital in August. It has been hard finding one on my plan and around my work hours. Seems as though many are now just out there for the $.
It seems as though there is a great circle of people here. I am glad I found this site.
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