Posted by Wildflower on October 3, 2003, at 9:42:44
I'm really not sure where to start with this post. I've been dealing with this issue for a while and it keeps eating away at me so I'm going to post it for others to ponder.
How do you explain to others that your depression is not caused by them and that you just can't snap out of it? My ex - the only true friend I have right now - insists that I should not be depressed as long as he's around. He's taking my depression personally. According to him, depression is for the weak and it's easy to rid just like a bad mood. Whatever.
It kills me that I can't talk to him about things and I feel that I have to fake a good mood just to see him. He won't even continue a phone conversation with me if I pick up the phone and sound depressed. I'm having a rough time at work and it's totally zapping what little energy I have. The combo of my ex plus work is making me a crazed person and all I want to do is withdraw from everyone and everything.
I'm tired of being tired all of the time. I'm tired of being moody. I'm tired of making excuses. I'm tired of crying in silence.
I really need your advice. I don't have any close friends other than him. I don't want to lose him and be totally alone but I'm having a rough time dealing with all of this. The only other person who knows my situation is my cousin and she's often too busy with her boyfriend to help me.
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