Posted by zeugma on September 21, 2003, at 13:09:26
Yestreday I worked a long day and things went fairly well. I came home feeling drained; not unusual as I'd worked about seven hours plus had substantial travel between workplaces. My IBS normally flares up on the weekend (which is better for me than it flaring up during the week) and is usually directly proprtional to the degree of stress I've had during the week. So the IBS was not EXTREMELY bad last night. But it wasn't plaeasant, and my mood was pretty lousy, when I noticed that my shower was filled with what looked sewage. This nauseating sight sent me over the edge. I began to worry if sewage was going to come out of all my faucets. I didn't want to wash my hands as I was afraid of getting them dirtier with this contaminated water. I needed to call my super, but I hate him coming in here and seeing my dirty apt. Besides he always complains whenever I have to ask him to fix anything. I knocked on his door this morning and he lectured me on how 'it wasn't an emergency' and he was only available for emergencies on off hours and weekends. Now I'm feeling rancid, obviously I haven't showered today and I haven't brushed my teeth either, because I am afraid the water may be contaminated. I wish I was the kind of person who did NOT go into anxiety overdrive when faced with these kinds of problems. That is what I really hate about mental illness: it magnifies the mundane problems of life and piles them up until you don't know what to do next.
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