Posted by dyan on September 11, 2003, at 13:34:40
I have had major depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. I am almost 60. Have a great family husband of 40+ years, happy marriage, children, grandchildren and in-laws all very supportive and loving. Then you may ask, why am I writing this message? Because I do not think any of them understands exactly what chronic major depression is really like or why it is so life altering. I have a psychiatrist that I get along with very well, but I sometimes think even he does not understand. Why do I feel like I am falling apart inside and it is not apparent to anyone that this is going on? Or how serious it is.
Have taken every single antidepressant and treatments on the market today and some combinations also.Am currently on two antidepressants, an anxiety drug and sleep aid. I am so tired of waking up every day and feeling so hopeless, no matter what I do. I do not understand why I was born or why I am still here. I am definitely not suicidal, would not do that to God or my family. Just plain out of ideas and seem to have hit a brick wall.
I have no motivation and if I do have a day that I feel some I work all day and into the night to catch up on everything. I do not sleep well, not good sleep. I am sure there are others who have had or are feeling these same feelings. Would like to hear from them. Thanks in advance for any help at all.
poster:dyan
thread:259086
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