Posted by fallsfall on August 24, 2003, at 22:47:49
In reply to I wake up wanting to die., posted by kara lynne on August 24, 2003, at 13:47:10
This doesn't sound like fun! (((((Kara)))))
If I read your post right when the SSRI you were last on is out of your system then the nightmares should go away? Does that mean that you can wake up wanting to live?
I'm glad that you are just feeling this, and not wanting to act on it. But it is bad to feel it, too. If you can rationalize to yourself that it is because of the meds, then it might be easier to take.
I'm sure that you have, but did you try an MAOI? I tried one, and the diet was a little inconvenient but I was more than willing to do it if the drug would help.
Your loneliness breaks my heart (but don't call him). Penny says that she meets people at Weight Watchers. I guess that my best suggestion is to get a wonderfully soft, new stuffed animal (Gund makes really soft ones, and I've seen a good selection at Toys R Us - and you could find metal jacks there, too). I was given a bear by a work friend shortly after I crashed 8 years ago. This bear has given me so much comfort and joy. He kept my husband away when I wanted him to. My husband and I used to play Hide and go Seek with him. My older daughter wrote a wonderful and long story about an adventure he had. My younger daughter loved him so much that I had to find a twin for her (mine is Bear, hers is Teddy). Within the last 2 weeks I pulled him into bed with me to keep me company. Your new stuffed animal can play with you when you wake up - they like to be patted and some like to learn to do somersaults or stand on their heads. Or, if you have a bad memory like I do, hide him when you go to bed (in a drawer or closet) and then find him when you wake up! (Now you are learning my most important secrets, but Bear has a secret - maybe he'll tell you if you say "pretty please"!)
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