Posted by kara lynne on August 21, 2003, at 19:40:32
In reply to Kara Lynne?, posted by fallsfall on August 21, 2003, at 16:48:19
Hi fallsfall,
Thank you for thinking of me--I needed that. I seem to be falling into the black hole of Calcutta these days.The ex emailed me today saying 'You said you didn't want to be friends. That makes me quite sad." Which of course triggered Ye Olde Wound, and dug it in deeper how easily he could let our (romantic) relationship go. No, I didn't call him. But I am having a hard time believing there will ever be anyone else to call.
I took a risk and tried to find out what happened between me and a friend of mine; she essentially said I hurt her many years ago by not returning a phone call and she could never trust me again, even though I apologized. (I apologized today, even though I don't remember the incident.) Then I brought up some similar feelings I had and she said 'See, we're just too neurotic to ever be friends, we'd mess it all up." And walked away.
And another one bites the dust.
I feel like Pigpen from the Peanuts cartoon, leaving a little trail of psychic dirt wherever I tread.
I am treading off to get Chinese food, take it home and hide under the covers with my cat.
Thank you for thinking of me, fallsfall.
poster:kara lynne
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