Posted by lil' jimi on August 13, 2003, at 10:21:06
In reply to re: The above past life wasn't for me, posted by kara lynne on August 13, 2003, at 1:39:04
hi Kara Lynne!
and, now, i recall your biggest latest stressor: your licensing exam and trying to get qualified to re-take it after having your mental health history mis-documented as a form of aggression instead of depression and being rejected for your dx being inadequate ... ... or at least something horrible like that .. ... .. on Top of the list i was making for you yesterday ... ... ... whenever they itemize our stressors, yours are the ones they always rate as the top aggravations ... ... ...
> Please don't be ashamed of your success, even if I tease you.
>well, "ashamed" may have been an overstatement ... ... but i do feel that my worst complaints are small potatoes comparatively speaking .. ... .. and i like you teasing me ... ... it's good for me.
> I think it's well deserved, and somewhere it gives me hope. I'm even trying Lexapro again!
>it may well be deserved, although i can't be too confident how well deserved it may be, but thanks!
of course, i am the big fan of lexapro, so that's close to my heart ... ... and you already know how it can be a big challenge ... .. ... it's like you can never know who it will work for and who it won't .. ... .. especially now that it seems to be being prescribed for everything ... ..
... depression
... atypical depression
... every anxiety/panic disorder
... bp, bp2, every mood diorder
... ocd, eating disordersas setonin stablity becomes the more likely suspect for these disorders ... and as other ADs inflict worse or too many SEs and /or poop out ... then the refugees are being sent to lexapro or effexor ...
and of course lex can offer up every kind of initial SE, which can last ... oh, who knows how long ?
... .. ... the pBab lex tread is an awesome resource that documents all of these things so well ... ...("bring us your poor, your tired, huddled masses ..." she said.)
but it is most gratifying to me, if i am able to give you hope.
There IS Hope! for all of us .... hang in there!> As for the list...you got an extra lifetime?
>
> Yes, the stressors are many, and enhanced by this evening's full moon. The move (2nd in six weeks) I hope to God is for the better, but I'm still too traumatized to know it. Hopefully within a few weeks I'll be able to see a little bit of the forest for the trees...
>poor baby ... we are a-pulling for you!
> How long ago did that happen to you? How would you consider it reciprocity, or reason to feel paranoid if it were karma in action? I don't think it means you have to give up anything dear to your heart...
>the auto accident happened in st. pete, fl on june 3rd, 2002 and lama pema norbu was to arrive (did arrive) in austin on june 5th 2002 ... ... it was a little over a year ago .. ... .. funny thing to me is that when i told my gp about my parents in march, she said (i'm way paraphrasing here) that they give us 6 months to recover from grief and i had had nine months, therefore i needed lex ... ... and although i argue with that, a lot, i still feel like lex was/is a good thing for me.
i suffer some powerfully ambivalent feelings about those events ... .... ... the sense that they are connected haunts me ... ... ... yet it seems unavoidable ... .. ... 'seems' may be the operative word there ... i don't know
... .. ... but IF they were/are connected, well, now i think things may be able to be too connected
... ... although, in my madhyamaka mahayana buddhism there is great emphasis placed on the mutually interdependent reciprocal origination of all things
... ... ever feel like you are supposed to be learning a lesson about something and the universe is screaming it at you but you don't get it?i'd just like to believe that such karmic forces weren't going to .... what?
... use loved ones deaths to ... what?
... guide my spirtual ... choices?i mean if i am not Supposed to join up with my beloved Nyingmapa ... .. ... can we just have the powers-that-be like send me a telegram or something instead of like having people die?
so, you can see now how these things seem to me too connected, for this buddhist, who believes everything is connected ... ...
what might be the consequences if i were to try to join the Kargyutpas? ... (kargyutpa is another tibetan buddhist tradition ... there are like 4 or 5 main flavors)
even i think this is silly ... ... and my parents really are in a better place now .
still it spooks me ... ... some.
and how is kara lynne today, please?
~ jim
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