Posted by kara lynne on August 7, 2003, at 13:33:12
In reply to Re: Thanks » lostsailor, posted by Dinah on August 7, 2003, at 10:37:15
Hi Dinah,
Sorry to hear you so down. That financial stuff can really trigger it.I agree with Tony wholeheartedly; your son loves *you*, not a picture of an ideal mother. You obviously have a heart of gold no matter what you are going through, and that can't be substituted by anything or anyone else.
Wish I had something better to say about those wishing you were dead thoughts. I woke up at 5am (my golden hour, it seems...) and the very first thought I had was 'I want to die.' It's so automatic it's scary. Then I scared myself and thought I'd better not say that because I'll manifest some disease or something, and I don't want that so I should just stop saying those things already. And as you know, beating yourself up for your already self-punishing thoughts works so well.
Anyway, you are so loved and appreciated here. Hope that counts for something.
Love Kara
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