Posted by Dinah on August 7, 2003, at 7:42:31
In reply to Re: Figured it out » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on August 6, 2003, at 21:37:25
But what a choice!
I'm seeing my therapist today. Somehow I think he'll come down on the side of working more hours. But even if the hours are available, I just don't think I can do it. I'll try for a while but I don't think I can.
An example is yesterday. A final something went wrong with the loan. I burst into tears right in their office. They were trying to help, my husband and I were trying to get them to lay off, because it was making it worse.
And I was totally unable to focus my mind for the rest of the day. I have a total inability to recover from upset without a few hours of sleep. Any attempt to work in that time period is worthless. I just wander, unable to focus sufficiently. And sad to say, I get upset pretty easily.
Luvox had me sleeping hours and hours a day, and stupid and unmotivated to boot. The more energizing AD's trigger a mixed episode of hypomania. The AP's are off limits because of my diabetes. So meds aren't the answer for me to be more productive either.
That leaves cutting down to once a week in therapy. Which will leave me less stable, and thus less often able to work.
A choice is clear. But the choices are untenable.
I guess this isn't a very good morning. I'd better go hide away.
poster:Dinah
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