Posted by Tabitha on July 26, 2003, at 1:35:54
Another unbearably lonely Friday night. I ate at a restaurant, it didn't feel good at all being there alone. I went to a bookstore that has live music, but mostly the customers were just ignoring it, nobody was chatting. What's with people in bookstores? Aren't they there because they're lonely? It's friday night fer crissakes. How come it's such a non-social atmosphere? Of course I'm too shy to break the mold and chat with anyone.
I scoured the classifieds of the alternative weekly for social groups and there's absolutely nothing that looks appealing. A bunch of 12 step groups, but I've been there and done that and don't want to do that again right now. There's one for a movie-watching club, but somehow I think it would turn out to be terribly under-attended.
There's a church in my area that has a lot of social activities. I've gone to it once, in a different location, but it was just too much new- agey enthusiasm for me. But I was more depressed then, and that one had a different leader. It might be better. I looked at the website listing their beliefs. I think I can tolerate it. I have pretty low tolerance for religious beliefs. I really don't want a spiritual or religious experience now. I just desperately need some new social groups.
It's the only thing I can find that looks halfway promising.
I'm scared to go anyway-- it's been a couple years since I went to any new group. And this isn't a support group, so I just can't go in there and dump my problems, I have to try to make a normal 'good' social impression. Yikes.
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