Posted by slinky on July 25, 2003, at 19:53:11
beating myself up.
in the trapped void.
depression nah, that word doesn't describe this self torture.
well at leat i'm getting angry--that's a good sign.
Civil though eh?
I awoke today in a panic attack..been crying all day.
I wanted out into nothingness..I'm chicken scared that there's life after death just like the nightmares I want the nothing..my feeble energy digested back into the vast universe.
Life is supposed to be hard but I'm as weak as a chair made from string.
poster:slinky
thread:245291
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