Posted by yesac on July 25, 2003, at 14:34:56
In reply to Re: Advice need..... » fallsfall, posted by tina on July 25, 2003, at 9:19:41
First off, I think this is a very good thread that a lot of us can identify with. I'd really like some help in that realm too. I think it's always been hard for me to make "real" friends", as opposed to friends who don't really know the whole me, and we only see each other occasionally sort of thing. But now I am in a new place, and I desperately need some friends here, but I really haven't been able to make any. I've looked for groups to join, classes to take, and all the rest... but I don't know really what to do.
> I don't really like to do anything. I can't remember a time when I actually felt joy while doing anything. Some things are more interesting than others but nothing really 'grabs' me, you know? I wish I could find a hobby or an activity to look forward to.
> I wish I could find anything to look forward to. My immediate future is looking just plain hard and full of hurt. My long term future looks lonely and empty.
> I can't imagine every day just the same as this one. Year after year. Nothing to look forward to.You know, those have been my exact thoughts. Just the other day, I was writing in my journal that I don't like or want to do anything. Okay, that's not *exactly* true. There are some things that I could say I like to do, but what are they? I mean, read (which I haven't been capable of handling for months), go to movies (though I tend to get bored sometimes and plus, it's kinda tough when I have no one to go with), going out to eat. I mean, these aren't interests or hobbies. They are just time-fillers. I do sometimes happen to enjoy things that I do, but I don't look forward to much of anything. And I haven't for a long time. Most of the time I find myself thinking "what's the point?" of doing any particular activity.
Anyways - I know this isn't really uplifting at all, just more to let you know that I am in the same boat.
I would really like to know how to make friends, good friends, long-term friends. I think that I also have issues with intimacy and true "bonding" because I don't open up too well. I tend to be a bit aloof, afraid of asking people to do stuff with me...
I wonder if this has caused dysthymia, or resulted from it, or both??
I really hope that we can hope for more than mediocrity!!
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