Posted by syringachalet on July 21, 2003, at 11:03:05
For the longest time, I was doing pretty coping with the PTSD and depression.
I got a new boss and that all changed within one week. I have never had a male boss that I had to work so directly with before. This boss also was a 'touchy' kind of man..not like sexually or abusely but just touched you when he said something he felt deeply about.
Part of my PTSD and depression is that I cant handle being touched by anyone. Not doctors, dentists and only a few of my family members.My shrink has suggested that I apply for SSD because she has helped me with meds and suggestions as much she she says she can.
I have spend the better part of the past 20 years trying to help others and be strong for them.
I feel like I have given up so much of myself that at times I dont even know who I really am anymore. Mostly just really empty.I not trying to whine here. Just needed a soft place to land for a little while..
I will try to pull myself back up and go on as soon as I can.....
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