Posted by lostsailor on July 15, 2003, at 21:01:06
In reply to Re: Thank you Aurora, and Lost Sailor... » gabbix2, posted by gabbix2 on July 15, 2003, at 20:31:55
Gabbix,
Who really knows anymore?
I am really starting though think I may become a “spinster” with a ton of cats later in life.
I am not really liking that image, but an so sick of heartache that I am seriously wondering if pain is worth the price of something that seems so fleeting.It’s funny, because you don’t seem that picky and nor am I. By that I mean we are both probably total sticklers for some things---say honesty, fidelity, compassion, but not for many of the things that comprise the “ideal mate” to many others.
UUGG, it makes me so mad at times. There are occasions that I feel I should just beg my ex to forgive me for really doing nothing wrong at all and at least not be alone, but that will never happen. At least I have found enough respect that I wouldn’t even consider that other than a quick thought that quickly repulses me.
I kinda met someone a week or so ago and sat thinking/knowing that on the first meeting I was already put off by many of her value(ables)s. I tried to flip the conversation in so many different ways but they seemed to keep leading back to what one should have (acquire/own) and not the least in how they are attained or at what stake to others.
I like to think of my-self as so easy going, but at the same time know that anyone dating me, has a handful to deal with. I try to think, though, that most of what I have to offer is worth fighting a bit for (eg them having to deal with my neuroses, but is that that much to ask all things in a relationship all things considered….??????????
I say no. My therapist thinks not, but why than is love so elusive??? I don’t know if you like woody allen’s flicks, but there this seen in “”Annie hall”” where he is walking and wondering about love and this old woman just passes saying “love fades” WHY is what I want to know…I guess we all do…
~t
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