Posted by gabbix2 on July 15, 2003, at 12:50:32
In reply to Re: missing out - giget, gabbix, posted by giget on July 15, 2003, at 11:24:32
Yesac, please don't take the idea of living as
an ideology, or something to be debated, I genuinely think my way of thinking is the thinking of a person suffering from depression.Wanting to survive is the most fundamental of instincts, I think my not having it means I am ill, and with the correct medication or method of healing I wouldn't feel this way.
There have been times where life has been enjoyable enough that its surpassed my
wish for death.Okay, story time.. This helps me sometimes when my heart doesn't believe. When I was actively suicidal once, I was at my Mom's, and she took me outside to a pear tree and said
"Look, at this pear, right here on the stem, is a little notch with a split in it, so that when you pick the pear, it splits at the notch and doesn't damage the tree"
"If that much thought went into creating a pear tree, how can you doubt that there is a reason for you?"It gets me through my existentialist angst sometimes.
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