Posted by giget on July 14, 2003, at 14:09:35
In reply to giget - a question, posted by yesac on July 14, 2003, at 12:40:44
Yesac,
Yes I talked of making it through the attempts, but other than here, one person and my therapist I do not talk about it. My famliy does not know and that is how it will stay. It is not something that comes up in conversation usually.I did not go to the hospital after the attempt, I just dealt with the pain I put my body through. I have a very bad anitbody system so I catch alot of stuff quickly. I played it off as that. My emotions and body shows problems all the time. It was just to much to deal with, being alive, cleaning up my mess, and then telling people, no way.
I think that people who need to go there will eventually, it was just not my time yet.
> You said that you've never gone to a hospital, but above you were telling me about surviving your suicide attempts. Did you not need to go after those, or do you mean you've never gone voluntarily?
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> I totally know what you mean about walking in and being vulnerable. That's probably the main reason I've never gone even though I probably really should have at times. That, and the fear of my family and others finding out and realizing how screwed up I really am. But I am just not sure that I ever could bring myself to go in voluntarily, even though I know it's better that way. I just don't know if I could make the decision that things really were that bad. I'm afraid of the disruption to my life, too.
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