Posted by whiterabbit on July 8, 2003, at 19:27:21
In reply to Whiterabbit?, posted by Greg on July 8, 2003, at 17:41:47
Thanks Greg, that's really nice of you...sometimes I think I must sound like a big knowitall, and I don't like them either!Actually I'm doing real well, considering what's going on here at home. The reason I've been posting so much is because I have the time right now - I'm sort of in limbo. My lawyer is drawing up a petition for legal separation to answer my husband's petition for divorce. I think my husband believed I did this because I was still hoping for a reconciliation & he pretty much told me I was wasting my time. I set him straight on that matter. I told him the ONLY reason I filed for separation instead of divorce is because I don't have my own medical coverage, I'm covered under his policy at work & I don't have a steady job right now, just temp stuff with no benefits.
He had agreed to continue paying for my insurance coverage after the divorce, but my lawyer just laughed. He said that it didn't matter whether he wanted to keep me on his medical insurance policy or not - the insurance company would be under no obligation to provide coverage for me once we were divorced, and they would drop me like a hot rock.
Well naturally I freaked. The out-of-pocket costs for my psychiatric medication alone is over $500
a month, not counting the cost of the psychiatrist I need to give me the medication. So of course I need to go back to working at a real job unless I want to end up at the welfare clinic-
the thought of just giving up psychiatric care completely is unacceptable now, just the thought makes me shake! I was REALLY in bad mental shape at one time, a total whack job, and I can't go back there...I just can't, now that I know what it feels like to be well. Sort of.Oh, I'll figure something out. I have a good mind WHEN it's working well, and I've pretty much recovered from the serious shock of my husband's intention to leave me. I can't even feel upset at the "other woman" because she has NO IDEA what she's getting into, and if HER mind is working she will hike it on out of their relationship pretty quick once she gets a good luck at the "real" Ken. Because as soon as I'm gone & their affair isn't so dangerous and secret and fun anymore (the dangerous element being the psycho wife, of course) - weeeelll, missy, you're in for a ride. Ken is one selfish bastard and he doesn't like commitment, he's resented me from almost the beginning & I was too dumb to get out.
But I'm on my way now and I'm glad. I hope you're doing well yourself, I've been reading your California posts and about the job market out there. But it sounds like you wouldn't live anywhere else, am I right? Take a walk on the beach for me!
-Gracie
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