Posted by ruby on July 4, 2003, at 12:24:32
In reply to sick sick sick, posted by Penny on July 4, 2003, at 11:23:48
gee whiz, penny, even though i am new here i would say if you can't whine here where can you whine?! :) so no apologies, i say!
when i am feeling that crappy i remind myself i'd be miserable where ever i was and sometimes that helps when i am at work. i remember especially right after 9/11 when things literally went all haywire in my head, i went to work only because i knew it would be bad at home too.
i also thought that perhaps my lousy presence out in the world might be a good thing--showing folks you don't have to have it all together to go out and do things. in fact, when i was teaching i began writing on the board backwards, like mirror-writing, and didn't even notice it till my students pointed it out. first i was mortified and then i just let it be what it was--a moment of my pain showing and perhaps it allowed someone else to let their pain show.
i think one of the hardest things about going through times like these--as some others have mentioned here--is the loneliness and the feeling that others don't get it. but we are folks who do get it and we do need to be present in the world and present in our pain.
all this said, please be kind to yourself today--do those little things that help you go along--eat some cherries or light a candle or put up the ac on super high so you can cuddle under your favorite blanket. whatever works for you, dear one.
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