i tried to hang myself last night.... as a test

Posted by a very little sphinx on June 24, 2003, at 19:52:42

it's come to my attention,that my brashness does not deserve comment from some, that is okay by me... i was born into this world alone, and i will leave it alone... im writing to myself... a fever chart, that spirals downards...
the belt, looped around my neck, my feet on a crate, i tested my weight against the belt and the door... it seemed to slip a bit... but i think... i could hold... i have no hope, all of it has gone... there are no more christmas, no more valentines, im am no ugly duckling, but god put her big finger on me and said, 'you too shall be psyche'...
28 more years of this... haha... i dont think i could stand another two weeks.... sobbing at work, i tried my damned to smash a bottle on my head tonight.... bottles are made of strong stuff... but i want to see blood.... pools and pools of blood....
i am not like you. i don't know why i am speaking... it disipates into the dark... why is it so difficult, why can i not flip the switch OFF, forever.

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i tried to hang myself last night.... as a test a very little sphinx 6/24/03
Re: i tried to hang myself last night.... as a test » a very little sphinx zenhussy 6/24/03
Re: i tried to hang myself last night.... as a test » a very little sphinx Dinah 6/24/03
Put your Brashness to Some use » a very little sphinx Brio D Chimp 6/24/03
Death is the ultimate test Bobby 6/24/03
thanks for the welfare check and cops whoeverthefu a very little sphinx 6/24/03
a welfare check means you are loved, by us (nm) » a very little sphinx Zo 6/24/03
poetic justice (nm) » a very little sphinx Zo 6/24/03
Re: i tried to hang myself last night.... as a test noa 6/24/03
Re: Put your Brashness to Some use cybercafe 6/24/03
Sar used to try to hang herself, too. (nm) shar 6/25/03
Noa shar 6/25/03
Threatening others--welfare check shar 6/25/03
Re: Threatening others--welfare check » shar zenhussy 6/25/03
5:18 am... still cant sleep.... restless... a very little sphinx 6/25/03
threaten me if it makes you feel better » a very little sphinx bobby 6/25/03
No one knows what it's like... a very little sphinx 6/25/03
i filed a complaint against the police department (nm) a very little sphinx 6/25/03
To be or not to be whiterabbit 6/25/03
Re: i filed a complaint against the police departm wendy b. 6/25/03
How can they do that? bobby 6/25/03
where does it say im 28? i don't even know that # (nm) a very little sphinx 6/25/03
Re: blocked for 2 weeks » a very little sphinx Dr. Bob 6/25/03
22+28=50 magic # for life or death? threads above (nm) » bobby zenhussy 6/25/03
Re: 22+28=50 magic # for life or death? threads above » zenhussy shar 6/25/03
Re: Noa » shar noa 6/25/03
I remembered too... mair 6/25/03
same here.. (nm) » mair justyourlaugh 6/25/03
Re: 22+28=50 magic # for life or death? threads above » shar zenhussy 6/26/03
Do you get time off for good behaviour? » shar Brio D Chimp 6/26/03
time off for good behaviour? Don't I wish!!!! (nm) » Brio D Chimp shar 6/26/03

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