Posted by mair on May 26, 2003, at 10:18:48
In reply to yo-yo, posted by Snoozy on May 25, 2003, at 23:38:31
Like you, I either am ok or awful - there doesn't seem to be much in between although I can sometimes squeeze out a lovely afternoon or few hours where I manage to forget that I have this chronic disease which must be forever managed.
When is a broken piece of plastic just a broken piece of plastic and when is it a metaphor for all that is wrong with us? There are times when I'm just so easily overwelmed and the slightest provocation will seem to set me back so far - to where I'm thinking even suicidally or thinking I should leave my family or any of a number of awful scenarios. My husband seems distant and I interpret that to mean not that he's thinking about an issue related to his work, but rather that he's trying to figure out a way to jettison his horrible depressed wife.
I guess the trick is to have these triggering events occur in ok times as well as in bad times, and being able to recognize the different ways you react to them. When I'm most depressed, I try to remember that I don't always think a piece of broken plastic is irrefutable evidence of how inept I am and of how much I've screwed up my life. Of course our depressed voice is so utterly convincing. Sometimes you have to just take it on faith that it's not your only voice.
Mair
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