Posted by shar on May 25, 2003, at 22:49:06
In reply to The Misery Club, posted by whiterabbit on May 24, 2003, at 15:06:51
...to Lumptonia.
Ahhhh, the fond memories of the couch, blankie, Lump basket, and spa. Actually, I find myself there often, it's such a comfy place, and SUCH good company!
I was talking this week to my therapist, about how scattered I feel. Then, we started (well, I started) sort of listing off the things I was dealing with. It turned out to be a lot. No wonder I felt scattered! Scattered was GOOD in the face of the stuff around me (like being in the eye of the storm).
I believe the same about you, G-WR. You are dealing with hurricane force winds disrupting your life right now, and it is not only the force of nature that gets us in those situations, but the distance (emotional distance) with which those things come at us. They are just things, events, people, asses, jerks...whomever...who are brought upon us. They appear with no particular emotion to do us harm because they may be inanimate, or maybe just self-absorbed and uncaring. No matter. The 'us' they reach is real, heartfelt, tender, sensitive, grieving, hurt, sad and traumatized. A hurricane does not care. It would be nice if other humans did, but some of them are more like hurricanes than not.
I feel for you because you have heart. And damn anything for messing with that. I want you to survive, and I believe you will, even if you have a setback (depression-wise). Your world is in chaos, flux, unfamiliar....it makes some sort of sense that depression would result, or anger, or a myriad of other feelings and experiences.
The question is, can you hold on to you? The one we know and love? Down the rabbit hole it feels like, and could be, but don't forget the exit.
xoxo
Shar
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