Posted by gabbix2 on May 5, 2003, at 17:18:54
In reply to Re: I don't want summer to come, posted by mmcasey on May 5, 2003, at 9:18:56
Wow are there really so many of us?
I never knew. I dread summer, the long days I never know how to fill, clouds make the world seem smaller to me, cozier like a womb.
My anxiety skyrockets. My dr. doesn't see the logic in increasing my benzo dose. I've told him
THE DAYS ARE LONGER read my lips. I'M UP LONGER
most people are. On top of that the sunshine has always exacerbated my anxiety. He sees it as a ploy. Its so frustrating.
I hate this just gritting my teeth and wondering how I will get through another one.
And with each year its getting harder to be polite to people who say "Why aren't you outside its Beautiful?"
I know its just a thing to say.
but when you've had depression so long, and had people telling you what to do like idiocy is an inescapable comorbid disorder with depression its hard to tell whats just an innocuous conversation starter and whats a "helpful suggestion", to be followed by a loud whisper.. "well no wonder she's depressed staying in here cooped up all the time, I'd be depressed too"
Wow I think you hit a nerve Tina
Gee I used to be so nice. I think I'm going to be a really grouchy old lady. If I make it that far.
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