Posted by Tabitha on April 29, 2003, at 12:22:58
In reply to Warnings, ratings, aversions, etc. » Dinah, posted by leeran on April 26, 2003, at 14:54:44
Wow, Leeran, that's a lot of information. You're really brave to post all that. My history is maybe a bit similar.. I've been alone with my battery operated toys for .. gosh.. 6 years? Sex with partners wasn't good. I wasn't myself, and I wasn't getting what I wanted, even if the men were considerate and, um, generous, it didn't feel good. I just didn't feel present. I found that when alone, at least it was REAL, I didn't have to fake anything for anyone, you know? I didn't have to perform, or hear any criticism. Whatever I got was OK, though it was still hard not to criticize myself, eventually it got easier. I was happy with my self-contained sex life, because it was so much better in its way than any partner sex I'd had.
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