Posted by leeran on April 24, 2003, at 19:58:33
In reply to Response to Leeran, posted by mmcasey on April 24, 2003, at 19:34:02
Meghan,
You are welcome as well - and I agree, I couldn't be this open if others weren't so willing to share their experiences. Reading these posts is like putting together a good toolbox (or an earthquake kit) in case of an emergency.
Your mention of holding off on the big "S" reminded me of the period of time when I found out my first husband was unfaithful.
After the initial horror, I thought, oh h*ll, now I won't get to go to Hawaii on his company trip because now I need to divorce him.
Then I thought, oh h*ll again. I deserve that stupid trip and I've already bought a swimsuit. So, I stayed a while longer.
When I look back on it, I realize I wouldn't have my son if I hadn't wanted to go on that Hawaiian trip so badly. He wasn't conceived on that trip but that "hold off a little longer" mentality kept me in the marriage and eventually, out of gratitude for someone moving a wheelbarrow full of gravel under the deck a beautiful life was created.
It's just all cause and effect.
When I'm feeling good I look at life like a pile of "chance" cards in Monopoly. You never know what you might miss if you bail out before the end of the game (I'm a confirmed "bailer" in Monopoly and it's not something I'm proud of :)
poster:leeran
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