Posted by mmcasey on April 24, 2003, at 19:17:41
In reply to Re: suicidal ideation - your thoughts, please » mmcasey, posted by Dinah on April 24, 2003, at 17:28:03
I don't have OCD, at least not in the clinically diagnosable form, though I think that I have a few tendencies.
But, from reading some of your responses, I have realized that it seems like there are 2 different (if not more than 2) types of suicidal ideation. One is the "non-suicidal ideation" when someone has more of a compulsion to do something to hurt herself even though she does not have thoughts that she wants to end her life. I've had those, when feeling perfectly fine and good... just standing on the side of the road and suddenly thinking that I could step in front of a car, or stading with a razor in the shower and thinking that I could slice myself with it.
But the other kind, like what I had the other day is the more "suicidal" suicidal ideation, where I really did feel like I wanted to end the pain and despair of my life, and was therefore drawn to putting the pills in my mouth. Even though I was pretty sure that I would not swallow them.
Hmmmm. Just some thoughts.
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