Posted by whiterabbit on April 24, 2003, at 10:30:31
In reply to Re: Good feelings » Tabitha, posted by leeran on April 24, 2003, at 3:02:24
I feel exactly the same way, that things happen when and how they were meant to happen. I feel that strongly, at this point in my life. I've become somewhat spiritual...
I had a wonderful aunt who was the "glue" in my maternal family - she was generous and fun and loved us all without condition. She built a large house with many bedrooms and everyone was welcome
at any time, the door was always open. She adored holidays, and for decades her home was the meeting point for all family, near and far. She would feed us and fuss over us and spoil us. She was truly special.Her death from colon cancer was painful and prolonged. She was the last person on earth who "deserved" to die in this manner, and watching helplessly as she slowly deteriorated was
torture for all of us. She was only 56 when she died, and it was such a cruelty, to have this marvelous person wrenched from our lives so soon
and in such a terrible way. I remember sitting in the bathroom near her bed with a washcloth in my mouth so she wouldn't hear me sobbing,wondering if God was dead.I do feel her presence at times, and I talk to her when I'm sad. Little things will happen to let me know that she hears me, too often to be mere coincidence. So I do feel now that there is a time and a reason for the events in our life, even though we can't see the whole picture. I have to remind myself sometimes when I'm not dealing well with the divorce that my husband so desperately wants. It's hard not to hate him. But maybe this has to happen so I can be happy myself.
-Gracie
P.S. So don't worry about no embolism, Noa!
P.P.S. I love you, Aunt Judy
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