Posted by kara lynne on April 2, 2003, at 19:30:50
In reply to Re: (((Gabbi))) ?, posted by gabbix2 on April 2, 2003, at 14:56:24
Hi Gabbi,
Yes, unfortunately I know that feeling all too well, over and over again. Mornings are the hardest for me for some reason. I wake up with this gnawing fear in my gut and have to talk myself into get out of bed before it eats me alive.I am still living with my boyfriend but looking for a place to live--I'm trying to believe I'll feel better when I get out of here. Today I was talking to an old Russian woman who was trying to convince me to stay--that anything was better than nothing, and that I would be in nothing but financial hardship and more loneliness if I left. She was telling me to either wait until I found another man, or have and affair in the meantime. (I asked her if she knew anyone...) It played into all my fears, of course.
Gabbi, I know the utter letdown of having a med look like it's going to work and then fail you. It is in my estimation, nothing short of torture. But I will say to you what someone said to me-- that the fact that it started to work means something can and will work for you, it's just a matter of time before you find it. How long were you taking Zyprexa before it stopped working? Have you given up on it entirely or are you going to try and see if you can still work some in?
There was some movie I saw once, maybe it was called The Big Picture, where this woman runs into her friend and they're discussing his woes and she tells him he should go ahead and feel really sorry for himself. I always liked that line. The other line I liked is when Martin Short tells someone they can't enter the room he's in because they'll "track in failure all over the carpet". No relation to you, just a line I liked!
So what was your mother like? We should swap stories sometime-- I'm going to try and email you later. I know this will lift for you. Let's keep our collective prayers going.
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