Posted by rayww on February 20, 2003, at 15:30:49
In reply to Re: I like the middle of the night » Dinah, posted by Eddie Sylvano on February 20, 2003, at 9:16:40
I wake up between 3:30-6:00 really wanting to get up and get a head start on the day, but it bothers my husband when I'm gone from bed that early in the morning, and he can't find me. When I force myself to go back to sleep till the rest of the family gets up, I get discouraged before even beginning my day. Not good. How can I justify getting up early? I am so afraid it will affect my health and set me back if I don't get enough sleep. I I felt wonderful when I was taking my early walk before 7:00. I especially remember walking in the fresh snow between 4-5:00 am, listening to the crunch, breathing the fresh air, feeling all bundled up and at a restful peace in nature, no fear. No one drove past me, the town was asleep. I am afraid to try that now. Not fear that I might get mugged or harmed, but fear that I might put fear into my family if they don't know where I am, or if they get up for breakfast and I'm nowhere to be found. I can't leave notes because they wouldn't notice them. I know what I fear, it's hearing my husband call my name as loud as he can in the middle of the night. Gosh, I hate that! ANd it's fear that I may be labelled the "betrayer". I have endured betrayal and would never want my family to feel that from me. How can I overcome that fear and justify doing the thing I love the most, to get up early and enjoy the silence of the world, the peace, and the blessings reserved only for the early riser?
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