Posted by Bipolarsux on February 17, 2003, at 5:28:05
In reply to Going back to university after 7 years oftreatment, posted by JohnV on February 17, 2003, at 2:52:38
Hi John.
I can relate perfectly to what you have written. I had my first 'episode' when I was 21...and the 'episode' has not stopped since (I am now 'middle aged').
Exactly like you, I often still feel bitter because I am so conscious that my youth was destroyed. So much for the 'best years of our lives' eh?
I also watched my friends get married and build careers while I felt too overwhelmed with my illness and/or the side effects of treatment to do the same. It is very demoralizing and I know exactly what you mean. I am still single, still clinging to my job by a thread...still very ill.
As for your current 'crossroads' situation: maybe I could offer a strange suggestion? As someone with a severe mental illness, I find that *routine* work gives me the stability and lower stress that I need, especially when there is a physical aspect to it.
Have you ever thought of taking up a trade; carpenter, metal worker etc etc? Often it is not menial or back-breaking work and is a good distraction from mental pain, which is definitely worth something.
It pays fairly poorly at first, but not too bad later on (and at least you don't actually lose money, unlike going to college).I know it's a bit of a left-field suggestion but maybe it's something you haven't considered before.
Bipolarsux
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