Posted by beautiful_mind on January 31, 2003, at 21:51:35
Well I went out with my Grandparents tonight and my parents to a usual spot we head to in the past few years. A restaurant near their house and not far from ours either. The afternoon though was stressful I became paranoid again like usual around people for no real reason. Though it seems a whistle is the device which triggered negative feelings towards a man walking into the store where I was at, he kept whistling and talking about what he was doing from behind me while I looked through records. This was bothersome enough to make me angry. Then I was embarrassed of my anger, and when I went to the next local I was still pissed and felt very paranoid about people around me. I had to cool off a little bit latter at a park. I found a peaceful spot and sat in my car analizing the situation as best as I could. It's strange the paranoia. It seems like a very sensitive feeling though I can't quite place it's purpose in me. Later tonight I felt better going out with my relatives and less or no paranoia. I comes on and off mostly the worst is when I am by myself which is mostly when I do go out. I went up to the record store today and met my pretty long aquintance there who runs the thrift record collectors shop, he as long hippy hair and beard. He almost appears to be a little homeless though he has money, but wears the same clothes etc. He and I met at the latte place and chatted a little but it seemed to be irritating me today spending though few short periods of time with him. But when I went back to his store I just collected records and felt a little anoiyed by how I was feeling. I seem to feel an aquintance with this fellow who runs the store and talks to me when I'm there but don't really like his appearance and his smell sometimes that bothers me a little more than I feel like handling, and I always never regret the great record deals I get at his place which is not that frequented by customers for the lack of order and organization in the shop. Anyway that was bugging me today and the paranoia was a little high after that incident, though I didn't feel it was directly related to that, but it probably is. I suppose I don't mind using his business for collecting though finding this man a friend is a little difficult, he seems to be a loner and mostly it's a curiousity to me being at his store and finding great vinyl records I sell and store in my collection, I've know of him and frequented his business for about four years or longer.
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