Posted by Alii on January 30, 2003, at 23:53:09
In reply to slow song for sad boys » Alii, posted by kid a on January 30, 2003, at 15:17:43
> Slow song for sad boys
>
> Sitting it the hotel
> at Borhamwood I> Read her letters
> and felt some
> small sense of> joy.
That I am able to bring a small sense of joy to another is consolation at this time. I'd rather be on the end where I could feel joy and revel in it and be happy and run and sing and dance and just be free.....
...instead I curl up fetal and pray each time my eyes close for death. I cry awake each morning because it is yet another day I am alive. The hope and promise have left me. The old thought patterns are the strongest now.
My words written on paper brought moments of joy. Keep reminding me of that until you have a stronger sense of me rejoining that pact.
yers,
a.
poster:Alii
thread:35788
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